Ebon Pensiveness

It's not always easy to take God at His word. Especially when disappointments come time after time and there's no one you can tell because everyone else is already overloaded with issues of their own. It's one thing not seeing any kind of personal breakthrough or transformation in the lives of those placed into your stewardship. It's another thing entirely to feel irrelevant to the point of suspicion that everyone and everything is probably better off without you. How did I get to this point? I can't even begin to answer that question. God, maybe you can tell me...